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Guess what?  Doc didn't get the injections.  I guess he will be getting them this week, last week they had a consultation.  So here's hoping this is the week.  He said there is botox in them so I'm a little jealous. 

Guess what else?  Doc's gone again.  This one is stupid, he has to work all night and it's already causing problems.  We texted a few times then he got on facebook and started a fight with me.  He hasn't slept in about 24 hours and this is just what happens.  Lucky me huh?

For the first time TC asked for him while he was away.  We've been saying "where is" with her for as long as she's been mobile and she used it correctly earlier when looking for her stroller.  I found it for her.  Later she came up to me and wrapped her arms really tightly around my neck and said "where dada" and it broke my heart, I couldn't just go in the other room and find him.

He should be back in time for his appointment on Thursday. 

I had my NT scan scheduled for tomorrow but I canceled it.  I saw the baby last week and all looked well so I'm just going with that.  I couldn't handle getting not great news by myself. 

My dad and my grandparents when he came home for the first time.

Tomorrow is my dad's birthday, he would have been 60.  He would have been 60 and he would have 7 almost 8 grand kids not just the 3 he had when he died.  He would have been 60 and he would have walked me down the aisle and danced with me at my wedding.  He would have been 60 and had 10 years more with those of us who loved him.  These are all selfish thoughts, he is in paradise where he always knew he was going.  His 49.78 years here were nothing compared to the eternity he gets to spend in heaven and until it comes the time for the rest of us to join him he is enjoying his time with his dad and his little sister and the granddaughter (my niece) who didn't make it to the outside world.

So here it is, I'm in a dark place right now, I am so thankful for the silly grin of TC. She has nonstop ways to make me laugh and the desire to do so.