checked out

I believe many of you know exactly what I mean, we are in PCS limbo and it's driving me nuts.  I've pretty much checked out of this house, the problem with that is that I still have 3ish weeks here.  Everything about this place makes me want to run and hide.  Making dinner is miserable because the lack of counter space, I've done it for 2 years because it was just a fact of life but now...now I have a big kitchen just waiting for me.  Really, it's sitting there with a big peninsula and real tile floors empty waiting for me to show up and get weelicious on it's ass.

Packing is a slowing moving thing, without a set in stone move date I don't feel the urgency.  That and I'm afraid to pack something because "we might need it".  So packing sucks and yea, I've checked out of that for now too.

Cleaning, I know that keeping up with the small stuff will make the big stuff much easier when it's time for the deep clean but ugh.  This place is a mess, in my head I don't really live here anymore so why keep it guest ready?  Don't worry, there aren't rats or mold everywhere, I keep it sanitary but that's pretty much it.

Maybe admitting my funk will put an end to it.  Here is the new goal, I'm sharing it so I have some accountability, pack up all my clothes that I know I wont wear because I'm too fat thanks to the baby bump and the rest of the baby stuff from TC's room since she's been a toddler for 5 months now.