We had our anatomy scan for #2 today and I am happy to report everything looks great. Of course at 18w3d it's still early to get a good look at everything but everything they saw was exactly as it should be at this point.
#2 was being a little shy for a while, every time the tech wanted to look between the legs suddenly they would close. It wasn't until the very end when she was pointing everything out to us that I saw it, "that's a vagina isn't it?" And sure enough it was. TC will have a little sister, a best friend only 22.5 months younger. I know it's either going to be a boy or a girl so there really shouldn't be much surprise either way but I would have bet $1,000 I was having a boy.
I know it will be amazing for TC to have a sister, I've always wanted one for her but at the same time I couldn't believe my reaction. I cried, a lot. I know I only want two kids so I guess I'm mourning the loss of ever having a boy. I'm not telling you this because I am proud of myself, I am actually quite ashamed of my reaction. Here I am blessed with a second healthy child and I was crying over her genitals? But I also know that it's a normal reaction and I am just going to allow myself to be a little sad for a bit while I really get used to the idea of another beautiful girl.
Doc was great about it, I could see that he was really sad but he kept it to himself and did his best to assure me that what I was feeling was normal and TC will be so blessed to have a sister. His eyes were glossy and red.
We will not have a son.
I know we could always try for a boy but in reality I only want 2 kids, I always only wanted 2 kids. There is no guarantee that #3 would be a boy so then what? Then I have one more child than I am comfortable with and still no son. I don't believe in the "keep trying until we get one" approach.
In the next few weeks we will seriously stated to consider names. I would love something that goes well with Teagan. We like that her name is unisex, maybe we'll continue on that road. She will have my maiden name for a middle name but I wont be sharing that here - PERSEC you know. But who knows, we may go in a different direction all together, I think Noelle is beautiful and I am due on Christmas Eve...
We are having another baby girl. A girl! A sister. I love her so much already.