#2 was being a little shy for a while, every time the tech wanted to look between the legs suddenly they would close. It wasn't until the very end when she was pointing everything out to us that I saw it, "that's a vagina isn't it?" And sure enough it was. TC will have a little sister, a best friend only 22.5 months younger. I know it's either going to be a boy or a girl so there really shouldn't be much surprise either way but I would have bet $1,000 I was having a boy.
I know it will be amazing for TC to have a sister, I've always wanted one for her but at the same time I couldn't believe my reaction. I cried, a lot. I know I only want two kids so I guess I'm mourning the loss of ever having a boy. I'm not telling you this because I am proud of myself, I am actually quite ashamed of my reaction. Here I am blessed with a second healthy child and I was crying over her genitals? But I also know that it's a normal reaction and I am just going to allow myself to be a little sad for a bit while I really get used to the idea of another beautiful girl.
Doc was great about it, I could see that he was really sad but he kept it to himself and did his best to assure me that what I was feeling was normal and TC will be so blessed to have a sister. His eyes were glossy and red.
We will not have a son.
I know we could always try for a boy but in reality I only want 2 kids, I always only wanted 2 kids. There is no guarantee that #3 would be a boy so then what? Then I have one more child than I am comfortable with and still no son. I don't believe in the "keep trying until we get one" approach.
In the next few weeks we will seriously stated to consider names. I would love something that goes well with Teagan. We like that her name is unisex, maybe we'll continue on that road. She will have my maiden name for a middle name but I wont be sharing that here - PERSEC you know. But who knows, we may go in a different direction all together, I think Noelle is beautiful and I am due on Christmas Eve...
We are having another baby girl. A girl! A sister. I love her so much already.
Congratulations! Hope they'll be best friends!
ReplyDeleteIf you really wanted a boy there always is adoption. My stepmother adopted a little girl after having a couple boys.
So excited for a sissy. Just think of all the matchy-matchy dresses and stuff! It is so fun. And I was a MESS when I found out we were having Zane. I desperately wanted a girl and I thought since he was a boy I was destined to have only boys. Even with me knowing I wanted a few more it still was a sad thing. It took me a long time to get past the guilt of it too. Just in case you thought you were the only one...
ReplyDeleteCongrats! Noelle is such a pretty name--especially for a Christmas Eve baby!
ReplyDeleteOne of the reasons we decided to get pregnant again so soon was because we wanted another little boy so Luke and him could be best friends (with my husband's family history, we were convinced we would have another boy). Although I love Madison so much and adore having a girl, I was a little upset we weren't having a boy.
Your little girls will be best friends their entire lives--that has got to be such a joy for you! Enjoy your girls :)
I looooove Noelle!
ReplyDeleteWelcome to the double girl mom club---it is a great club to be in :-) What you wrote about your reaction was me....word.for.word. I was hugely disappointed and felt like I was letting my husband down by not giving him a boy (even though it is essentially his fault....lol). I also wanted only two and knew if I tried for a boy I would end up with triplet girls! Here I am almost 9 years later and looooooove having my two girls.
ReplyDeleteBesides, our dogs a boy....there, the husband has someone on his team ;-)
I'm a Christmas Eve baby and my parents thought about naming me Noelle.
ReplyDeleteI forgot to add.....if she is born on the 25th...Natalia, it means born on Christmas Day. My daughter was due on the 16th but if I had her on the 25th I would have used Natalia.
ReplyDeleteI'm glad you've got a healthy girl in there, but I understand how you feel. I'd ideally like 3- 2 girls and a boy, but I don't know if that will happen (I'm 34!), and I could see being disappointed not to get to have both a boy and girl. EVERYONE around us is having girls, but my SO is hoping ours will be a boy (though he told me that there is some noise about exposure to RE in the military and men being more likely to have girls- said most of his buddies have girls- no idea if there is truth to this??). Anyway...for our first, I'll be happy with either, but I'd be disappointed if a second was the same too. Even though I'd be lucky to have two! Confusing, but yeah, I get what you're saying!
ReplyDeleteI totally understand your feelings, having 2 girls and only wanting 2 kids myself (I got my Devil Dog Tutored last year-Far Side...anyone?)
ReplyDeleteAt first yes I was disappointed, it's normal (anyone that says otherwise is a liar and they KNOW it). But now, over 6yrs into the adventure that is 2 girls I can say I wouldn't have it any other way. I got a boy cat so FanBoy isn't too outnumbered and called it a day. ;o)
Look at the bright side, stuff for baby girls is SO much better than stuff for baby boys. LOL. So many options. All boys get is football and teddy bears or teddy bears playing football. LAME.