Take it easy, I don't really know how to do that. I told Doc that I wasn't supposed to pick TC up for a few days and he thought that was pretty funny, honestly who can stop picking up their kid? She needs to get in and out of her crib, her booster seat, her car seat and also needs momma cuddles now more than ever. Yesterday my take it easy included taking down the Christmas tree and moving my furniture back into place. Doc has been a lot of help, the problem is that I need to ask for help. I am not so great at this, I love that he's helping but I feel bad asking - in my mind if he wanted to help he would just do it. I told him this and he's doing his best to take initiative but he doesn't see the same messes that I see.
My major annoyance is my father in law, but that is a post of its own.
These past few days I've had some really bad bleeding, it makes me really nervous because I thought I was done with that. And I've been researching what the bleeding and pain can mean and it scares that crap out of me. So far I haven't hit the mark the nurse told me to look for so I haven't been checked out (trying to not be too graphic). I just hope it goes away so I can stop stressing. I would also like to stop hurting so I can start working out, or at least walking! I've lost 15lbs but need another 12 to get back to mt starting weight (which was 150 - remember after TC I was stuck on 157 for ever but started using the daily burn app and dropped some weight). I really want to get back to 140 but at this point I just want to fit into at least one pair of jeans with a zipper. If my size 4s never again see daylight I will survive.
Doc really has been great, like super great. He's a good father, he has been since day one with TC and he's juggling both of them so well. It's obviously harder for me because I have the baby attached to my boob several times a day and TC uses that time to act out. I just with Doc had a little more patience with her when she acts out but that's nothing new. The lack of sleep has been really hard for him, his headaches are horrible when he can't sleep. He's slept on the couch a few times just to get some sleep. I'm alright with this, he can't do much at night anyway. Addie's been sleeping so well, I've been putting her down around 11 in her bassinet then she usually wakes around 2 and around 6 then we get up around 9 (Doc gets up with TC). I can't complain about that! Last night she was up every 2 hours but I was able to get up with TC this morning which was nice, I miss our mornings together.
The hardest part has been the dynamic change with TC. I can't pinpoint it, I am not treating her differently and she's not really acting differently but something is different. She's the big sister now, not the baby. I miss her even though she's usually right next to me. Gah, I'm going to cry even just thinking about it. It's an adjustment, I just hope I'm doing enough to balancing it all and TC knows that she is still my little lady.
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There is no preparation adequate for the addition of another baby. There really isn't. I am the queen of doing to much right after delivery. I always feel so much better than being 9 months pregnant! So I very much know where you are coming from. However, you really need to baby yourself a little. You will be of no use to anyone if you have to do bed rest. You will take longer and longer to recover (I know you say you are done but it does take more time each baby you add). Parts take longer to shrink back to shape.
As for picking up Miss TC. I so understand. I have been there but I found that there is a difference between me picking them up to get them somewhere (into car seat or highchair) and walking around with them plunked on my hip while I go about my day. And I usually make them do as much as possible. Climb up into their car seat if they can. Or at least just give them a boost rather than fully picking them up. Let her be the big girl. You just have to do it. Even when you aren't ready for her to not be your baby anymore.
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