so much to learn

Doc is really bad right now, he screamed at TC earlier - really screamed at her bad enough that I felt like I needed to hold her for a while after.  It wasn't him, it was the injury and it really sucks.  I was feeling bad for myself and the situation then I watched this video from the local news back home.  This is my college roommate (the one who dated the lax player who introduced us to the band O.A.R. so I owe her a lot) and her son Brandon. 


(sorry I can't embed it but click and go watch)

Family smiles in the face of adversity: wpri.com

She has such a positive outlook on things, she always has.  I don't know what I would have done without her in my life, she helped me through so many things she came into my life just as I lost my dad.

I have never once heard her complain about the limitations in her life.  There are many things you give up on when your husband is confined to a wheelchair.  Although no one would judge her for it she never complains about what she has to go without, she focuses on all the amazing things her husband has brought into her life.  Then when Brandon was born, after the diagnosis and the dust had settled it was always a focus on what Brandon can do (and the main thing is smile, he has the most amazing smile).  She has dedicated her life to making sure his is as fulfilling as it can be.  I want to be like that.

I spend so much time and energy thinking about what life should be like and not what it is.  I wish I could focus on all that is good, Doc's got a pretty amazing smile too.  But no, I focus on the crap.  While I know I'm allowed to hate the situation I shouldn't let it beat me.

This is what I need to focus on - Doc & Addie this afternoon

I think we could all learn something from Jenn, I know I am so blessed to have her in my life.